Alcoholism and drug addiction strikes everyone, no discrimination. Many stories are about men who have overcome their addiction, but there are countless women in recovery who are helping people overcome their disease. We’re continuing our “Women in Recovery” series with Melissa’s story of recovery.
“Growing up, I always did well in school and aimed to please everyone. I also had a deep desire to go against authority in order to get what I wanted. This incongruent relationship between people pleasing and rebellion, mixed with entering my teen years, led me to my first drink. A black out drinker from the start, I always wanted to go as hard as I could– but I would wake up the next day, stay out of trouble, and pretend like nothing happened. Once I got to college, I started to do the same thing with drugs. Whatever I could find, I would try it with a sense of invincibility, all while still doing great in school. The fact that I could make the Dean’s List and still get high and drunk every day meant that I in no way had a substance abuse problem, or so I thought. Eventually, though, I started to put myself in dangerous situations, manipulating people, and putting the lives of others, and my own, at risk. Then one day I woke up, and realized I wasn’t as untouchable as I had previously thought.
I had become so depressed, so afraid of being found out, and so full of secrets and lies that I just wanted to disappear. Somehow, instead of going deeper into drinking and drugging, I accepted an offer to get help. My mom, the one who had always supported me even though I overtly lied and ignored her boundaries for years, brought me to treatment. I didn’t admit to being an alcoholic and addict until I was halfway through treatment, when I suddenly became aware that I didn’t want to disappear anymore.
That was the beginning of my recovery, and now, almost two years later, I still don’t know what made me accept help. All I can attribute it to is a power greater than myself. That same power has allowed me to feel real peace, and to accept where I am today without shame. Today, I can be honest. I no longer feel that I have to manipulate people and lie. I can help others. And I never have to feel alone, ever again.”
There are many more stories just like Melissa’s, recovery is possible. Our drug and alcohol rehab in Austin, Texas treats all forms of the disease of addiction with a focus on opioid and heroin. If you or a loved one is struggling with opioid addiction or heroin addiction, get help now. Infinite Recovery offers a confidential hotline at (844) 206-9063 and our admissions team is available 24/7 online.